all in one day

First, I lost my son's prescription, because I left it on the printer ( don't ask ). I wasted 2 hours searching for it. That was my ADHD acting up. Then, we went and got my son's ADHD medicine refilled with said prescription. While waiting for it to be filled at the Target store, I browsed the book section and came upon the memoirs of jaycee dugard, and perused her story. I can't and won't compare her story to mine. All stories of survivors are unique, and equally valid. Only a nonsurvivor would try to compare stories of survivors, all are horrible. Anyway, I seemed to have my adhd, my son's adhd, and facing csa all come about in one day. Plus it made my wife very tired, and and angry, what a day.

painful clarity

I am back on my meds, in preparation for my upcoming job. Now, a 'good' problem has arisen. The painful clarity of previous carelessness from being unmedicated is a positive step, but a painful reminder. But that's okay. Things are working out. ADD won't beat me. I will make its positive aspects my allies, while the medicine minimizes the negative aspects.

clarity-wise,
Michael

I got one!

An engineering firm hired me to assist in the drawing and design of infrastructure projects for government and corporate clients.  I will be starting on monday.  This is a good opportunity, even if it is entry level.

Quixote Boy

In the spanish novel Don Quixote, the title character decides, among other things, that the local windmills are actually evil giants needing to be slain. My son, now, has decided to become quixote boy. I don't think he knows who quixote is, but he seems to be practicing quixote-ism. He appears to be making, in his mind, the windmill known as dad into an evil giant that needs to be defeated, at least emotionally. I've tried to explain, for his sake, that fighting me hurts only him, and that true courage lies in surviving life and solving problems, a concept I am all too well acquainted with. However the message seems lost on him. My wife asks me if I challenged my dad when I was nine, but my honest answer was that I don't remember. Besides, I was already too preoccupied with 'other things'  when I was my son's age to challenge my dad. My brain was the anti-quixote, making the evil giant into a windmill, so I could ignore it until I was ready. I don't want my son trapped into fighting windmills, wasting his energy, and thus don't have the real courage needed. I've even noticed that while seeming brave with me, he will be timid elsewhere, such as on the basketball court. He'll argue with me, but act scared during practices and games. Its backwards. I hope my son abandons quixote-ism, and soon.

imaginarily,
Michael

The rules we live by

Many of the rules that work for the majority of people don't seem to have the same positive effect on me as for most. I have to pick and choose some of the rules. That's okay, because life is about surviving, and not about forcing oneself into a box. Some of the rules do work for me, and that;s what I have in common. The difference is due to the unique combination of circumstance in my life, and that of my family. A perusal of my blog will indicate many of the circumstances, which I won't rehash here. I look forward to your responses. This could be interesting.

regardingly,
Michael

drug shortage * cringe *

Click HERE for information on the adhd drug shortage currently affecting millions.  Its a scary thing. According to recent statistics, 8 million adults, including me, and 7 million children, including my son, have adhd. This sure doesn't make things easier. Stimulant meds are too easily dispensed, it seems, possibly for those who don't really have ADHD. This fraud is very concerning for those of us who have lost jobs, or been kicked out of school activities from time to time, because of REAL adhd. I hope this gets fixed, or a lot of people in need are gonna be hurting alot more.
concerningly,
Michael

Jerry Sandusky, murderer?

Jerry S. murdered the childhood of several young men. He also murdered the career of Joe Paterno, and several other employees of PSU. Now, in the wake of JoePa's death from cancer over this past weekend, it appears Jerry might have helped to murder Joe Paterno. The pain, shame, and sadness Joe P. experienced from being fired over what JS did certainly made his chances of surviving an already extremely dangerous illness even smaller. The resulting media frenzy made it worse. This is one of the side effects of childhood sexual abuse, that go beyond the damage to the survivor. Lots of collateral damage occurs, to witnesses, society, and people connected to the event. No surpise though, that it has such insidious and long reaching effects, given the horrible nature of the crime.
regrettingly,
Michael

p.s. On another more positive note, I've had two interviews, and a phone call, in my job search for drafting. Hope it breaks wide to the positive, soon.